I’ve had a tough time writing lately.
That’s not unusual. Even great writers get stuck sometimes.
My problem was that I had started writing for my professors and for my assignments instead of for my audience. No wonder I was stuck.
My goal when I started this blog was to to be authentic. To be as authentic in my faith online as I am in the real world. To remind you that you are loved and God’s heart is for you to know him in a real and tangible way.
But – and it’s a big but – in the process of studying my butt off in grad school, I lost sight of you and of who I am. Because my focus was off, I was trying to make my stories appeal to a wide audience because you know, it’s easy to please everyone. And along the way, I friend-zoned Jesus.
Because I was trying to talk to everyone – which would be a great title for my memoirs by the way – I left my faith out of the equation. No wonder I’ve been lost, frustrated by writers block and struggling with motivation.
It was one of those aha! moments. The old adage is “write what you know.” Walking in faith – and tripping a lot, both literally and figuratively, pretty much sums up who I am.
I don’t have it all together and frankly, with as busy as my life is right now, if I had it I’d probably put it down somewhere and immediately forget where I put it.
It’s a relief to have that clarity. I was reminded of Jeremiah 29:11 – specifically the phrase “hope and a future.” That’s what my heart is for this blog and for you. To know that God promises you hope and a future.